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...you know how much I love to take risks. [ he smirks. ] As for the game, blackjack, a simple best of three later on.
[ he bristles. ] What's that supposed to mean? I have a keen eye for fashion. [ he blinks, taking a step back to behold the shirt sunday holds up for him. ] ...I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not. [ he makes a face, crinkling his nose. ] I'm not wearing that.
[ he bristles. ] What's that supposed to mean? I have a keen eye for fashion. [ he blinks, taking a step back to behold the shirt sunday holds up for him. ] ...I can't tell if you're being sarcastic or not. [ he makes a face, crinkling his nose. ] I'm not wearing that.
... [ a small nod. ] I, I understand. [ he has to refrain from having an immediate ( and likely undesirable ) knee-jerk reaction to sunday's hands slipping from his own, but he manages to do so. barely. his own hands fall uselessly to his sides and suddenly he's feeling more vulnerable than he anticipated, so he quickly shifts his stance and runs a hand through his hair. ] Don't say things like that. That's not true at all, Sunday. [ everybody is entitled to a little selfishness... and maybe he was too selfish and too optimistic about how this would work out. ]
Whatever you want. Need. I... just want you to be happy too. [ ... ] I'm not going to bulldoze ahead without you. I'll take this slowly too then. And wait for you to be ready... if ready is what you want to be.
Whatever you want. Need. I... just want you to be happy too. [ ... ] I'm not going to bulldoze ahead without you. I'll take this slowly too then. And wait for you to be ready... if ready is what you want to be.
I didn't envision a schedule. It's not like we spent every minute of every day in each other's company. If either of us wanted to get together to do whatever, then we would just... ask.
'Are you busy?'
'Do you want to watch a movie?'
'DTF?'
...there's no need for such a drastic change. A- And, and maybe I was hoping that I could introduce you and Alhaitham and that you'd get along too, and then the three of us could spend some time together. [ but that suddenly feels like more of a pipe dream. ]
'Are you busy?'
'Do you want to watch a movie?'
'DTF?'
...there's no need for such a drastic change. A- And, and maybe I was hoping that I could introduce you and Alhaitham and that you'd get along too, and then the three of us could spend some time together. [ but that suddenly feels like more of a pipe dream. ]
DTF?...I apologize. I had never been with a single person before you. I am not sure how it works when you are dating someone who is dating someone else, and intro– oh, we already ran into one another earlier.
[ He glances down at the ground. ]
He does indeed remind me of Dr. Ratio in appearance and mannerisms. [ Same as Kaveh reminds him of Aventurine sometimes, so Sunday definitely has an oddly specific type. ] You are quite fortunate.
[ He glances down at the ground. ]
He does indeed remind me of Dr. Ratio in appearance and mannerisms. [ Same as Kaveh reminds him of Aventurine sometimes, so Sunday definitely has an oddly specific type. ] You are quite fortunate.
Very well, and it was a test of your personal taste. I am glad you passed with flying colors.
[ He sets the terrible shirt back on the rack and grabs a trilby with a peacock feather on it to plop on Aventurine's head. ]
Are you certain you do not want to grab something for yourself?
[ He sets the terrible shirt back on the rack and grabs a trilby with a peacock feather on it to plop on Aventurine's head. ]
Are you certain you do not want to grab something for yourself?
[ no need to explain dtf right now. he can save that for later... if ever. ] I don't know either. I'm no relationship expert. And I... I'll be honest. [ he hesitates, feeling his chest tighten, because it's hard not to just fall back into bad habits. ] I never saw myself in a real relationship. [ kaveh shuts his eyes to focus on smothering all the reminders of his failures and fuck ups, ...how he's the reason time & time again for his own misery, which is evident af right now too. ]
Wh- [ his eyes snap open and he looks mortified. ] When?! [ he laughs nervously. ] What do you, uh, m- mean?
[ focus, you idiot, focus. ] B- But I, I can't claim to have all the answers. Most answers or really even... any. [ his shoulders sink inward as he sighs, letting his head hang in shame, because he's definitely not instilling confidence in either of them. ] I only know one thing for certain... and that's how I feel about you and Alhaitham. I'm sorry.
Wh- [ his eyes snap open and he looks mortified. ] When?! [ he laughs nervously. ] What do you, uh, m- mean?
[ focus, you idiot, focus. ] B- But I, I can't claim to have all the answers. Most answers or really even... any. [ his shoulders sink inward as he sighs, letting his head hang in shame, because he's definitely not instilling confidence in either of them. ] I only know one thing for certain... and that's how I feel about you and Alhaitham. I'm sorry.
And what would have happened if I failed your fashion faux pas exam… would I be cursed to wear nothing but gaudy technicolor animal print for all of eternity? [ he doesn’t seem to mind the hat, so he lets it stay. ] And if I see something I like… I’ll grab it. I’m really here for the company. I have plenty of clothes. [ and it’s not like he can’t shop later. ] But if you insist on shopping together… then perhaps we find something nice to wear for a dinner date. I don’t expect to find something too fancy here, but I can’t say no to something nice and… [ he smirks. ] fast & easy to remove.
Why did you not see yourself in a relationship? It sounds like you two had all these feelings and simply needed to talk it out. You could have been together this whole time in your own world if you had realized sooner that you both felt that same way. What you really need to work on is communicating your wants and needs to one another as plainly as you can manage and not being dragged down by any self-hatred.
And he helped me at the school earlier as well. You can say that is when I knew that he was always who your heart was set on.
And he helped me at the school earlier as well. You can say that is when I knew that he was always who your heart was set on.
You would. It is only appropriate that you live with your poor decisions, and there are some velcro tear-away pants if really want clothes that are efficient for Dr. Ratio to remove.
But the tearing sound of velcro... [ He would have nightmares over it. ] You can also browse the intimate apparel section while I look at shoes. I feel awkward as it is picking out your date clothes.
But the tearing sound of velcro... [ He would have nightmares over it. ] You can also browse the intimate apparel section while I look at shoes. I feel awkward as it is picking out your date clothes.
… [ kaveh takes a step back and sets a hand over his, laughing a bit deliriously… but only because he’s desperately trying to avoid break down. he really doesn’t want to start sobbing again. ] Because I’m a pathetic good for nothing loser!
Ha…! [ kaveh barks out a laugh. ] For the longest time there was no communication between us, because of a huge fight we had during our Akademiya days. [ he turns his head aside as he feels his hand grow hot and wet. so much for keeping it together. ] My feelings were the least of my concern, Sunday. I was just the sad sack of shit he found drunk in the bar because I fucked up… again.
And the more I think about it the more I wonder… why. [ what does he bring to the table? ]
[ kaveh shakes his head, his hand dropping from his face to his chest. he grabs a fist full of the material and twists it in hand. ] If that’s what you think then you don’t know what my heart wants.
Ha…! [ kaveh barks out a laugh. ] For the longest time there was no communication between us, because of a huge fight we had during our Akademiya days. [ he turns his head aside as he feels his hand grow hot and wet. so much for keeping it together. ] My feelings were the least of my concern, Sunday. I was just the sad sack of shit he found drunk in the bar because I fucked up… again.
And the more I think about it the more I wonder… why. [ what does he bring to the table? ]
[ kaveh shakes his head, his hand dropping from his face to his chest. he grabs a fist full of the material and twists it in hand. ] If that’s what you think then you don’t know what my heart wants.
[ aventurine tries to imagine ratio using tear away pants… and even his brain has a hard time painting a picture. ] I’m not sure stylish pants come in tearaway, but I appreciate the suggestion. I’ll keep it in mind. Maybe, if I’m ever feeling confident, I could trying convincing him to try them… [ but he doubts even he’s good enough at coercion. ]
Don’t worry about it then. I can take care of that later. [ to the shoe section. ] Are you buying any of this for a special occasion, or are you just trying to fill your closet?
Don’t worry about it then. I can take care of that later. [ to the shoe section. ] Are you buying any of this for a special occasion, or are you just trying to fill your closet?
[ Sunday frowns before moving closer and pulling Kaveh into a hug as his wings grow out to cover him as much as possible, offering him some shelter from any curious eyes. ]
You are not. I never thought you were. I always thought of you as brilliant and kind and honest...Whatever mistakes you made in the past, they were never out of malice. You are not cruel in the slightest.
Alhaitham also would not have taken you in if he did not care and did not possess the capacity to overlook your faults. I wish you could see how amazing you are. Amazing enough for me to– [ fall in love with. ] ...get along with well.
I would have let you go already if I did not think you were special, but I am willing to try being a part-time date to keep some part of you even if I cannot have all of you anymore.
You are not. I never thought you were. I always thought of you as brilliant and kind and honest...Whatever mistakes you made in the past, they were never out of malice. You are not cruel in the slightest.
Alhaitham also would not have taken you in if he did not care and did not possess the capacity to overlook your faults. I wish you could see how amazing you are. Amazing enough for me to– [ fall in love with. ] ...get along with well.
I would have let you go already if I did not think you were special, but I am willing to try being a part-time date to keep some part of you even if I cannot have all of you anymore.
[ kaveh’s quick to step back and sprout his own wings, so he can use them as a buffer to avoid being taken in a hug. ] What I actually am and what you think I am are two completely different things.
…that doesn’t sound all that amazing. I get along with the majority of people. [ an attempt was made, sunday. ]
Part time date… stop thinking about this like a math equation. It’s not parts and wholes. It’s I’m in love with you too and I don’t want to lose the beautiful relationship we started.
…that doesn’t sound all that amazing. I get along with the majority of people. [ an attempt was made, sunday. ]
Part time date… stop thinking about this like a math equation. It’s not parts and wholes. It’s I’m in love with you too and I don’t want to lose the beautiful relationship we started.
I meant for him to remove them from you. [ He also can't picture Dr. Ratio in tearaway pants...especially track pants. ]
And I am simply filling my closet with more alternatives after having such a limited wardrobe for so long.
[ he grabs a pair of high-heeled boots to try on. ]
Are these too much? I would not mind the extra height on occasion.
And I am simply filling my closet with more alternatives after having such a limited wardrobe for so long.
[ he grabs a pair of high-heeled boots to try on. ]
Are these too much? I would not mind the extra height on occasion.
[ His eyes grow soggy as he crumples to the ground. ]
Neither do I. I still love you, too. Call me selfish, but I was so happy thinking you wanted to spend more time with me when you talked about our own place.
That joy then felt premature and short-lived, and I was scared since I was already rejected once before. I had gotten over it, but having it happen twice in succession felt hard to bear and that perhaps the problem lay within me.
Neither do I. I still love you, too. Call me selfish, but I was so happy thinking you wanted to spend more time with me when you talked about our own place.
That joy then felt premature and short-lived, and I was scared since I was already rejected once before. I had gotten over it, but having it happen twice in succession felt hard to bear and that perhaps the problem lay within me.
And I love you too. [ as soon as sunday crumples to the ground kavehh rushes over and drops to his knees, throwing his arms around sunday to drag him straight into a tight ( and loving ) embrace. ] It's okay to be selfish. And I want to spend time with you, all my time, but... I'm the selfish one. I want the both of you. And I still want to find, repair, and decorate a house... one of our very own...
[ he folds his wings around sunday and continues to hold him closely. he's not letting go. ] It's not you. Sunday... you're an amazing person and I'm so lucky to have you as my boyfriend. I love you so much and I'm lucky that the both of you are so understanding because I really don't think I could live without either of you. No, I know I can't. And that's why I've been such a mess lately.
[ he folds his wings around sunday and continues to hold him closely. he's not letting go. ] It's not you. Sunday... you're an amazing person and I'm so lucky to have you as my boyfriend. I love you so much and I'm lucky that the both of you are so understanding because I really don't think I could live without either of you. No, I know I can't. And that's why I've been such a mess lately.
I am fortunate to have you too in return. I do not want to lose you.
[ He squeezes Kaveh tight as his wings brush against Kaveh's. ]
Please tell me what I must do to keep you. Go on a three-person dates? Invite him into the bedroom? He is handsome, but I simply do not know him well enough yet to feel anything beyond physical attraction. It was difficult enough to share any of my desires with you while being afraid of being mocked, but I can at least be present and assist?
[ He squeezes Kaveh tight as his wings brush against Kaveh's. ]
Please tell me what I must do to keep you. Go on a three-person dates? Invite him into the bedroom? He is handsome, but I simply do not know him well enough yet to feel anything beyond physical attraction. It was difficult enough to share any of my desires with you while being afraid of being mocked, but I can at least be present and assist?
…oh. [ his lips pull into a smile. ] I suppose it couldn’t hurt to try them, assuming I can find them in the right color. [ green green green, he’s searching for shades of green. ]
It is a wonder how we all got along shopping for clothes in a grocery store…
[ he peers up from the rack of athletic wear, whistling. ] Not at all. [ he slinks over. ] A bonus to height and sex appeal… not that you need it. How about we find something to go with them?
[ he’s sure sunday prefers suits, but he’s going to look for a stunning dress of some kind. nothing too racy but still sexy enough to make jaws drop. ]
It is a wonder how we all got along shopping for clothes in a grocery store…
[ he peers up from the rack of athletic wear, whistling. ] Not at all. [ he slinks over. ] A bonus to height and sex appeal… not that you need it. How about we find something to go with them?
[ he’s sure sunday prefers suits, but he’s going to look for a stunning dress of some kind. nothing too racy but still sexy enough to make jaws drop. ]
…you have me, Sunday. I’m not going anywhere. I don’t want to go anywhere and I’m hoping that you’re not going to go anywhere either. I want you right here. [ he tightens his grip on him, scared that, if he lets go, that he’ll lose him for good… ] If you’re not comfortable with either of those things, then no. We can take it slow. I want you two to get to know each other, first as friends, and if things evolve from there… then great. If not, then that’s fine too. We can still have time to ourselves. Time for only me and you.
And I hope you know I’ll never mock you. Your desires are my desires. [ he gives him a kiss on the forehead. ] And making you happy makes me happy.
And I hope you know I’ll never mock you. Your desires are my desires. [ he gives him a kiss on the forehead. ] And making you happy makes me happy.
We spent too long with low-quality fabrics, and while these are far from exemplary, they do have an added element of sturdiness so we do not have to continuously wash clothes everyday.
And I do not know if it is possible to give a former Bronze Melodia any amount of sex appeal. Purity and elegance tend to be emphasized in the family heads and those with prominent positions in Penacony.
[ Besides, he's not sure if he'll have anyone to wear anything racy anymore. ]
...What do you suggest that is not too tawdry?
And I do not know if it is possible to give a former Bronze Melodia any amount of sex appeal. Purity and elegance tend to be emphasized in the family heads and those with prominent positions in Penacony.
[ Besides, he's not sure if he'll have anyone to wear anything racy anymore. ]
...What do you suggest that is not too tawdry?
I cannot control if I leave this world or not, but while I am here, I am always available to you.
And I can try at least and see how it goes with a three-person date. It would be difficult to visit otherwise and be intimate, and I do not want to make my sister leave the apartment on our behalf. I could also try watching you both? I know Dr. Ratio and Aventurine had invited me to do the same for education, but I do not think they were serious.
At least, I would learn what you both enjoy and other acts beyond my own strange desires, which I would prefer to never tell anyone else again about.
And I can try at least and see how it goes with a three-person date. It would be difficult to visit otherwise and be intimate, and I do not want to make my sister leave the apartment on our behalf. I could also try watching you both? I know Dr. Ratio and Aventurine had invited me to do the same for education, but I do not think they were serious.
At least, I would learn what you both enjoy and other acts beyond my own strange desires, which I would prefer to never tell anyone else again about.
...mm, I wouldn't be so sure, but perhaps from your perspective it's hard to see it. And there's something to be said about elegance, grace, and purity. [ he offers him a small smile. ]
How about something like... [ he grabs a few different garments from off the racks and arranges them on a bench nearby. ] this? I think it's a good compromise of both.
How about something like... [ he grabs a few different garments from off the racks and arranges them on a bench nearby. ] this? I think it's a good compromise of both.
...and I can't control when I leave this world, but [ he hesitantly stirs the dendro mark on sunday's belly. ] I'll always be with you. Maybe... we can find something that you can give to me, so that, even when we do temporarily part ways, it'll be like you're still with me. [ he scoots that much closer. ] I'll find a way to find you. I don't know how, but... I will.
And you can always come over. We don't share a room and I already said I don't mind keeping things separate... at least until you're comfortable. We can start with a date. A normal date; dinner & a movie.
I don't think your desires are strange. I mean, if they are, then my own are equally strange. [ he cups sunday's cheeks. ] We seem to share a number of the same kinks...
And you can always come over. We don't share a room and I already said I don't mind keeping things separate... at least until you're comfortable. We can start with a date. A normal date; dinner & a movie.
I don't think your desires are strange. I mean, if they are, then my own are equally strange. [ he cups sunday's cheeks. ] We seem to share a number of the same kinks...
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