It's not like I haven't been approached time & time again, but I was just not interested, ...and beside that my situation makes things hard. [ ... ] A lot of people are materialistic, even if they don't realize it.

[ he hangs his head a little. ] Nobody knows what the Palace of Alcazarzaray cost me. Everybody believes I made a fortune and lead a life of luxury, when, in reality, ...I'll be paying Lord Sangemah Bay back until the day I die. All I really gained was the moniker Light of Kshahrewar and an exorbitant amount of fame, but fame doesn't put a roof over my head and food on my table.

It's not like we hadn't gotten to know each other, ... [ his cheeks color pink again. ] I didn't think it was that rushed... but I don't know. Maybe because I actually liked you? And I... wanted to do those kinds of things with you. [ if not for worrying about ruining things with alhaitham ( if he didn't share the same feelings ) kaveh would have probably jumped on him ages ago too. ] I... probably could have exercised more restraint though. Sorry.