Do you have what you need in your fridge, or do we need to make a quick run to the store… it’s early enough that we could go and come back before she’s up. [ probably. ]
[ Wait, wait, what. He pulls back a bit and grabs Kaveh by the arms in disbelief. ]
How did you not–? You are quite a bit older than I, aren't you? And you had all these toys? And you are obsessed with the big ones? You are also very beautiful?? Why didn't you tell me?
We should have waited, but I didn't bother since I thought you already had multiple partners before. I did not think one more would matter.
How did I not wh- hey! I’m not that old… [ says the guy that enjoys being called senior by his juniors. you can’t have it both ways, kaveh. ]
Just because I’m older doesn’t mean I have mor-… everybody has toys! And I’m allowed to… play with myself in my free time. [ he’s dying… again. ] My hand doesn’t alwa- [ he chokes on the remainder of the word, sputtering for a good couple of seconds. ] So!
I… have an appreciate for a particular type of body. I’m an architect, an artist, and I enjoy a good… structure… [ he can feel his face heating up. ] And everybody has their thing. I… I happen to like big tits. And chests in general. [ he motions at sunday’s chest. ] Yours too. I like your chest too, Sunday. [ now’s not exactly the time, but… he grabs sunday’s tits and squeezes. ] they’ve come a long way and they’ve always been perky and cute.
I didn’t think it mattered… especially if we were both okay with it. And… I’m not sure if I should be offended or not. [ i’m no ho, sunday! ] But like I… touched on before, beauty & brains only get you so far. [ with most people. ] My fame is a farce, and only a few people in Sumeru know as much. Financial security is… important, as is being able to provide. I can’t claim to do either of those things… [ so who the hell would want to date him, when all he’s no more than a pretty face. ]
[ Hard to finish a sentence when his chest is being squeezed. He gasps as his nipples harden and still Kaveh's hand before he gets too worked up. ]
...I apologize, I simply thought someone with your intellect and beauty would have had plenty of suitors to choose from. You do not need much more than that, in spite of what you think. Acclaim and money are only important to the materialistic, and there are plenty of people out there who would look past that.
If I had known, I would have insisted we wait a long time to get to know one another first, so I also apologize for not asking. What made you rush with me? Solely because I asked for help?
It's not like I haven't been approached time & time again, but I was just not interested, ...and beside that my situation makes things hard. [ ... ] A lot of people are materialistic, even if they don't realize it.
[ he hangs his head a little. ] Nobody knows what the Palace of Alcazarzaray cost me. Everybody believes I made a fortune and lead a life of luxury, when, in reality, ...I'll be paying Lord Sangemah Bay back until the day I die. All I really gained was the moniker Light of Kshahrewar and an exorbitant amount of fame, but fame doesn't put a roof over my head and food on my table.
It's not like we hadn't gotten to know each other, ... [ his cheeks color pink again. ] I didn't think it was that rushed... but I don't know. Maybe because I actually liked you? And I... wanted to do those kinds of things with you. [ if not for worrying about ruining things with alhaitham ( if he didn't share the same feelings ) kaveh would have probably jumped on him ages ago too. ] I... probably could have exercised more restraint though. Sorry.
There is nothing to apologize for. I do not regret that it was with you. However, I admit, I did not think you were interested in me romantically back then, and I was still getting over someone else and dealing with the fall-out and my imprisonment by the Family. I did not really value myself nor my own purity any longer. I should have at least told you I was not feeling good about myself at the time...
And having no money and a roommate will never bother me as much as you seem to think it does. You do not deserve anyone who cannot look past any of that anyway. You spent so much worrying and feeling ashamed while Alhaitham pined for you under your nose for years and you for him.
I hope that you feel a little bit better about yourself now, because [ he cups his cheeks and leans in, so that they're forehead to forehead. ] I think you're amazing. And I know it's hard to get over a crush, let along your first, but... if you ever want to talk about it... I'm here.
...our relationship is complicated. And like I said, I didn't want to jeopardize the friendship we were slowly rebuilding. If I said something and, archon forbid, he didn't feel similarly, then cue the awkward... and that would be the least of it. [ he could potentially have thrown him out. ]
And worrying - hah - it's what I do. It's why I drink. [ ... ] I never did tell you about my father and... what happened to him. When I was a kid I urged him to enter a competition held in Sumeru called the Interdarshan Championship. He was favored to win and I was so excited, but he... didn't. He changed after that, falling into a deep depression... and when he he ventured into the desert to perform some research he was swallowed by some quicksand, ...
My mother was heartbroken, and... understandably so. She did what she could for me, but you could tell there was a disconnect. I know she loved me, but the house, it hurt, and me... I reminded her of him. She stayed until I became of age, and then she took a few things and left for Fontaine, leaving me the house. It only hurt to stay... and to be reminded of him.
It was my fault. If I hadn't... [ he swallows thickly. ] I shouldn't have said anything...
[ He brushes a hand over the back of Kaveh's neck soothingly. ]
Oh, Kaveh...you cannot blame yourself for that. You were young, and you wanted the best for him. You also had faith he would win. Your father's death and depression were not your fault, and I am sorry you lost him...and that your mother became estranged as a result.
I know it is hard to see the good in that situation, but your friend took you in when he could have easily abandoned you, and you both simply needed to set your doubts aside, but better late than never. You have the chance to make up for all that lost time.
Please stop thinking you are not worth his time, attention, and consideration.
[ kaveh's not going to argue fault with sunday. he's been told time & time again not to blame himself, but he IS partially to blame. he now knows that a large part of his father's downfall belongs to the diadem of knowledge, but the initial push to join the interdarshan championship came from him. ]
I know. And I'm thankful for that. Alhaitham has always meant a lot to me. Even when we had our falling out... I think the both of us wanted to reconcile, but didn't really know how, and couldn't bring ourselves to be the one to take the first step because of how explosive the fight was. But he's very special, ...he always has been. [ and he really doesn't deserve him. ]
I need a drink... [ he smushes his hand against his face and clambers to his feet. ]
It is too early in the morning for that. How about no more talk of past regrets and what cannot be changed nor undone? You only have control of the present and the future.
We can go upstairs and fix my sister some breakfast then actually watch that 27 tuxes movie with her, and then you can go to your apartment and relax with Alhaitham after.
It's never too early. [ let! him!! drink!!! ] ...and that's why I refuse to lose either of you. I love you both.
Alright. We can watch a movie... and have breakfast. [ except that kaveh's going to be a leech during the movie and just cling to sunday the entire time. ]
[ he would much rather suck on sausage... but now's not the time for that. ] Do I get to try one of these sundaes? [ he lets himself be dragged. ] What else are you making for her?
Yes, I did save one. You can have that for breakfast if you do not drink.
[ He motions to him to keep his voice low before quietly rummaging through the fridge. ]
I am going to make her some homemade pancakes and toast now that we have bread. I made some butter the other day to go with it all, and there are some of those syrup packets from Denny's.
… [ kaveh pouts, but picks up the spoon, so he can start eating… except that he catches that look and freezes. ] Are you sure I should even be eating this? Maybe we should split it…
[ this sounds like binge eating... but kaveh binge drinks, so he can't say anything. damn. ]
[ he takes the sundae and meanders around the table to take up space beside sunday as he starts getting the breakfast stuff ready. ] I do want to share it, especially since it's something from your home. [ he digs the spoon in and tastes it, and it really is an explosion of all the sweet. no wonder sunday has such a sweet tooth. ] It really is delicious. [ he licks his lips ( as well as the spoon ) and then digs it in again, offering it up to sunday. ]
[ He leans over while mixing the pancake batter together and sucks the ice cream off the spoon. His wings spread in delight, feathers sticking out before one moves in front of his own lips. ]
It is good, isn't it? You can find a trolley at the Golden Hour in Penacony that serves these "hundred-layer sundaes." They were all zero calories in the Dreamscape, so you could eat as many as you want without gaining a single pound.
This one is clearly a little different, but I think it is fine to spoil ourselves a little once in a while.
[ kaveh sets the sundae down to peel the feather away and give sunday a kiss. a sundae flavored sunday kiss is clearly one of the best kinds. ] It's really good. I don't normally eat very many sweets, but I'm sure if things like this were more readily available that might be a different story. [ he lightly pokes sunday's side. ] Is that a confession?
Everything in moderation. [ except drinking & sex. those things are fine in excess. and depression. we can't forget about the depression. ] It's probably a good thing that we don't have a ton of these here. [ he goes in for another spoonful. ]
It is, so we should enjoy it to the fullest...I did not get to eat many sweets when I was young. My sister and I had to preserve our voices. Her more than I.
Still, we would often sneak them in and enjoy them on our own when we could. I know we are simply in another prison now, but I have never felt freer.
[ He steals another bite of the sundae before frying the pancake batter. ]
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How did you not–? You are quite a bit older than I, aren't you? And you had all these toys? And you are obsessed with the big ones? You are also very beautiful?? Why didn't you tell me?
We should have waited, but I didn't bother since I thought you already had multiple partners before. I did not think one more would matter.
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Just because I’m older doesn’t mean I have mor-… everybody has toys! And I’m allowed to… play with myself in my free time. [ he’s dying… again. ] My hand doesn’t alwa- [ he chokes on the remainder of the word, sputtering for a good couple of seconds. ] So!
I… have an appreciate for a particular type of body. I’m an architect, an artist, and I enjoy a good… structure… [ he can feel his face heating up. ] And everybody has their thing. I… I happen to like big tits. And chests in general. [ he motions at sunday’s chest. ] Yours too. I like your chest too, Sunday. [ now’s not exactly the time, but… he grabs sunday’s tits and squeezes. ] they’ve come a long way and they’ve always been perky and cute.
I didn’t think it mattered… especially if we were both okay with it. And… I’m not sure if I should be offended or not. [ i’m no ho, sunday! ] But like I… touched on before, beauty & brains only get you so far. [ with most people. ] My fame is a farce, and only a few people in Sumeru know as much. Financial security is… important, as is being able to provide. I can’t claim to do either of those things… [ so who the hell would want to date him, when all he’s no more than a pretty face. ]
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[ Hard to finish a sentence when his chest is being squeezed. He gasps as his nipples harden and still Kaveh's hand before he gets too worked up. ]
...I apologize, I simply thought someone with your intellect and beauty would have had plenty of suitors to choose from. You do not need much more than that, in spite of what you think. Acclaim and money are only important to the materialistic, and there are plenty of people out there who would look past that.
If I had known, I would have insisted we wait a long time to get to know one another first, so I also apologize for not asking. What made you rush with me? Solely because I asked for help?
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[ he hangs his head a little. ] Nobody knows what the Palace of Alcazarzaray cost me. Everybody believes I made a fortune and lead a life of luxury, when, in reality, ...I'll be paying Lord Sangemah Bay back until the day I die. All I really gained was the moniker Light of Kshahrewar and an exorbitant amount of fame, but fame doesn't put a roof over my head and food on my table.
It's not like we hadn't gotten to know each other, ... [ his cheeks color pink again. ] I didn't think it was that rushed... but I don't know. Maybe because I actually liked you? And I... wanted to do those kinds of things with you. [ if not for worrying about ruining things with alhaitham ( if he didn't share the same feelings ) kaveh would have probably jumped on him ages ago too. ] I... probably could have exercised more restraint though. Sorry.
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And having no money and a roommate will never bother me as much as you seem to think it does. You do not deserve anyone who cannot look past any of that anyway. You spent so much worrying and feeling ashamed while Alhaitham pined for you under your nose for years and you for him.
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...our relationship is complicated. And like I said, I didn't want to jeopardize the friendship we were slowly rebuilding. If I said something and, archon forbid, he didn't feel similarly, then cue the awkward... and that would be the least of it. [ he could potentially have thrown him out. ]
And worrying - hah - it's what I do. It's why I drink. [ ... ] I never did tell you about my father and... what happened to him. When I was a kid I urged him to enter a competition held in Sumeru called the Interdarshan Championship. He was favored to win and I was so excited, but he... didn't. He changed after that, falling into a deep depression... and when he he ventured into the desert to perform some research he was swallowed by some quicksand, ...
My mother was heartbroken, and... understandably so. She did what she could for me, but you could tell there was a disconnect. I know she loved me, but the house, it hurt, and me... I reminded her of him. She stayed until I became of age, and then she took a few things and left for Fontaine, leaving me the house. It only hurt to stay... and to be reminded of him.
It was my fault. If I hadn't... [ he swallows thickly. ] I shouldn't have said anything...
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Oh, Kaveh...you cannot blame yourself for that. You were young, and you wanted the best for him. You also had faith he would win. Your father's death and depression were not your fault, and I am sorry you lost him...and that your mother became estranged as a result.
I know it is hard to see the good in that situation, but your friend took you in when he could have easily abandoned you, and you both simply needed to set your doubts aside, but better late than never. You have the chance to make up for all that lost time.
Please stop thinking you are not worth his time, attention, and consideration.
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I know. And I'm thankful for that. Alhaitham has always meant a lot to me. Even when we had our falling out... I think the both of us wanted to reconcile, but didn't really know how, and couldn't bring ourselves to be the one to take the first step because of how explosive the fight was. But he's very special, ...he always has been. [ and he really doesn't deserve him. ]
I need a drink... [ he smushes his hand against his face and clambers to his feet. ]
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It is too early in the morning for that. How about no more talk of past regrets and what cannot be changed nor undone? You only have control of the present and the future.
We can go upstairs and fix my sister some breakfast then actually watch that 27 tuxes movie with her, and then you can go to your apartment and relax with Alhaitham after.
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Alright. We can watch a movie... and have breakfast. [ except that kaveh's going to be a leech during the movie and just cling to sunday the entire time. ]
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[ He starts dragging Kaveh back inside and up to his apartment. ]
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[ He motions to him to keep his voice low before quietly rummaging through the fridge. ]
I am going to make her some homemade pancakes and toast now that we have bread. I made some butter the other day to go with it all, and there are some of those syrup packets from Denny's.
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sundae or alcohol.
sundae or alcohol. ]
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[ He grabs the sundae and places it on the counter with a spoon. ]
Besides, I do not keep alcohol in the apartment, so please enjoy this rare treat from Penacony that my sister worked hard to acquire.
[ He gives Kaveh a sharp look that tells him he better be grateful for Robin's hard work. That's his precious sister right there. ]
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[ He had a depression-binge. Don't judge him. ]
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but kaveh binge drinks, so
he can't say anything. damn. ]
[ he takes the sundae and meanders around the table to take up space beside sunday as he starts getting the breakfast stuff ready. ] I do want to share it, especially since it's something from your home. [ he digs the spoon in and tastes it, and it really is an explosion of all the sweet. no wonder sunday has such a sweet tooth. ] It really is delicious. [ he licks his lips ( as well as the spoon ) and then digs it in again, offering it up to sunday. ]
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It is good, isn't it? You can find a trolley at the Golden Hour in Penacony that serves these "hundred-layer sundaes." They were all zero calories in the Dreamscape, so you could eat as many as you want without gaining a single pound.
This one is clearly a little different, but I think it is fine to spoil ourselves a little once in a while.
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Everything in moderation. [ except drinking & sex. those things are fine in excess. and depression. we can't forget about the depression. ] It's probably a good thing that we don't have a ton of these here. [ he goes in for another spoonful. ]
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Still, we would often sneak them in and enjoy them on our own when we could. I know we are simply in another prison now, but I have never felt freer.
[ He steals another bite of the sundae before frying the pancake batter. ]
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