I do not have anything either anymore, but even if I did, I would not judge you for it.
And why did you try to kiss me? The last time someone tried, they were under the influence of something they drank. In the end, it turned out they were not even attracted, and everything they said at the time had been a lie.
And, what, now you assume everybody and everything is a lie. I tried to kiss you because I like you, and you started fingering my mouth hole. That was more than just testing the waters. [ he starts fumbling with his shirt, hurriedly trying to put it back on. ] … [ and his story? kaveh doesn’t even know if he can believe it. its origins might be rooted in truth, but, like this, it’s probably skewed. ] I think we’ve explored enough of each other today.
[ He stares in shock for a moment before murmuring– ]
...It did feel good, and you are kind. Very kind. When I hear you speak, it is enthralling, even when you describe something mundane. I think the feeling could be mutual, but then I remember you only know part of me, and you may come to despise me if I told you everything.
I apologize for how I reacted. I did not wish to be another regret.
...I do not fully worship the Harmony as I should, for as much as I espouse their teachings and virtues. It was a facade. I was brought up to worship the Order, and so I did, under my adopted father's command and tutelage. I believed that every living being could only be saved if they were under one who embodied the Order.
I used a Stellaron, which is a cancerous fissure that destabilizes everything it touches, to attempt to force everyone under my sole control by making them dream eternally, and I would be reborn as a new Aeon that would keep watch over humanity. My delusions of grandeur led to my downfall and defeat, and I was a prisoner of the Family prior to coming here.
I lost everything. Only my sister still cares about my well-being, but I am forbidden from seeing her. Everyone else sees me as a criminal who yielded to his own mad ideals and abused his power of the Harmony to manipulate as many people as possible, and they are correct. I was naive and wanted to fix everything wrong with our world.
[ if he could remember all the stuff that scaramouche ( now wanderer ) did... then this would sound a little too familiar. but nevertheless he listens intently to sunday's retelling of what happened in penacony and everything he did to inevitably seal his own fate and land himself in chains. ]
And what about now? Do you still intend to follow the Order's law under the guise of Harmony? Or have you finally accepted and adopted Harmony's teachings? Or... is it a bit of both?
...as nice as dreams are they're nothing compared to the real world. Sure, there's never any pain or sorrow, but part of being human, even being alive, is knowing that there's a balance between the good and the bad. Nobody can fix everything. There is no... perfect world, and there never will be. We endure the bad to thrive in the good.
I hope that you get to see your sister again, and that you find a new path to tread. If you've finally come to understand that nobody should hold that much power over anybody else, then maybe you'll earn yourself a second chance... [ it makes sense why sunday was saying he deserved all of this early on. that it was 'retribution'. ]
I...do not know. I do not disagree nor loathe the Harmony. It is their very powers I still use and their path I still follow...I would like to find another way to bring paradise to the masses and keep them safe, but one without compromising their free will.
I hope I see my sister again too, but I would have to be released to do so...[ and accept the deal Robin made with Bonajade. ]
The reason I am telling you this now is because I meant what I said before. I am fond of you but do not wish to pursue anything deeper under the guise of deception and unspoken truths, and you were honest about your financial situation in your world.
...that sounds like an impossible dream. [ keyword: dream. ]
It could happen. Who knows what will happen if and when we leave here. If we'll be returned in the exact same state as when we left... maybe we'll even get to keep all of these new abilities. [ he hopes that's a CHOICE. his will likely be no but HEY some people might want/need them. ]
[ kaveh groans, ] ...keep that to yourself. It's bad enough I have to hide it from everybody in Sumeru. My magnum opus put me in the poor house, but it's what I'm revered for. [ nobody knows the truth... but they'd all likely have a good old laugh if they ever found out. ] I'm lucky I have friends like Alhaitham. I wouldn't have a home if not for him.
...so now what, since we've finished our little circle of share?
I will not repeat it to anyone. You have my word, and I would have liked to have seen your magnum opus in Sumeru...There may still be a chance one day. As you said, none of us know what will happen next and where the path we are on now leads.
And I can finish what you began...if you are not opposed? Just a kiss before I excuse myself.
How about we... see where things take us? We don't have to force it. I don't want you to be uncomfortable... [ he reaches across and sets a hand on sunday's thigh, rubbing it reassuringly. ]
[ He tenses up a little at the hand on his thigh, too dangerously close to his groin, as his heart starts to pound in his chest, but he doesn't move away. Instead, he moves closer, head tilting to one side as he presses a chaste kiss to Kaveh's mouth, eyes closed, mouth not really moving at first until his lips part to slot tighter against Kaveh's. ]
[ kaveh squeezes his thigh as he scoots closer, his hand forced up to the junction between sunday's hips and leg. he carefully brushes his fingers over his crotch as their lips come together for a kiss. ] Mm. [ he purrs into his mouth, swiping his tongue over his partner's lips in an attempt to garner entry. ]
[ He didn't expect to be grabbed there so soon, his hips jolting at the contact as he groans into the kiss, his lips opening wider. He can feel himself getting hard already as he cups the back of Kaveh's next, tilting his head to deepen the kiss.
His other hand nervously pushes Kaveh's shirt open, rubbing over his chest, marveling at the lithe muscle underneath before murmuring– ]
[ he pushes his tongue into sunday’s mouth to explore every inch of it, joining him in moaning as it’s deepened even more. he’s breathless when they finally do part, his eyes dropping to see that sunday’s hard… and suddenly he feels a little ravenous. he wants to wreck him thoroughly… but he reels it in, taking his wrist and guiding it over to one of his nipples. ] Here, first, and then… [ he drags it down to his second mouth. ] here some more. [ it parts for his fingers, licking at their tips. ] It felt… weird, but good weird, …
[ His fingers brush over Kaveh’s nipples, feeling a certain thrill in the pit of his stomach when they harden that only grows more intense when the tongue on his second mouth licks across them. He dips his hand a little deeper to feel along the tongue as he squirms, desperate to feel more stimulation everywhere. ]
Can you…can you touch my wings? I don’t usually permit anyone to do it, but I want to know how it feels.
[ For obvious reasons, but he figures it’s fair play for stimulating Kaveh’s second mouth. ]
If you scoot closer… into my lap, I mean, then I can finger you and you can fuck my second mouth. [ his breath catches and he squirms, his pants becoming uncomfortably tight. ] Of course. Here, come here… [ he tries to help sunday closer, his hand moving from his cheek to the wings framing his face. he pets them gently, hesitantly leaning in to brush his lips over them. ] Are they sensitive? Do you like when I touch them… what if I were to lick them, bite them, …
[ He shifts onto Kaveh's lap before freezing a bit. ]
I would prefer not to put anything larger than a finger in there yet until you learn more control. If we can leave that idea for the future, I may oblige you assuming you wish to try this again with me.
[ He can survive losing a finger...not so much anything else, though he doesn't have much time to visualize the horror as his wings are caressed. His eyes shut, body tense, dick already leaking into his underwear, as pleasure shoots down his spine before his hips involuntary rock forwards, ass dragging across Kaveh's groin to stimulate him with friction. His hand cups the back of Kaveh's head to urge him forwards at the same time as two other pairs of small wings sprout to cover his own face and eyes. ]
More...you can do more. Just don't pull or tear them.
Don’t think I have much self-control… then let me prove you wrong. [ he leans in to glide his tongue over the wing, taking a mouthful of feathers and working them with his tongue. he hums to send small vibrations along to sunday as his hand takes care of the opposite wing. the sound deepens, morphing into a groan as their clothes dicks grate each other through thin fabric. ] Let me hear you moan. [ he whispers against his cheek, his second mouth opening so its tongue can drag over the precum stained from of his pants. ] I want to taste you, Sunday. If you turn around… I’ll prep you. [ he’s already considering working him open using his second mouth’s tongue, so he can nibble his ass and up his backside. ]
[ It's Sunday who doesn't have much self-control left, whatever is left snapping under the onslaught as he's racked with spasms, unable to help himself from moaning loudly while he grinds roughly over Kaveh's arousal. The wet, hot tongue around his still covered dick only makes it even harder to stop himself as he comes with a gasp, the pleasure so intense he's dragging nails down Kaveh's chest as more wings sprout out of himself.
He hunches over panting afterwards, looking flushed and embarrassed. ]
I...I'm sorry...tried to hold back, but you were so– [ hot. ]
It’s fine. I think it’s hot that you couldn’t control yourself… you must be enjoying this… [ he sits back and peels away sunday’s covered arousal, his second mouth opening as its tongue collects the seed he spilled onto himself. ] It’s… strange… I can taste you. [ he drags a finger through a particularly large glob of cum and brings it to his own mouth. ] But it’s a more potent flavor like this… [ he leans over him to pepper kisses onto his wings & face, his second mouth licking up the length of his dick. ] Let me suck you off. I promise I’ll take care… this is hot, you’re hot, it’s going to my own dick…
[ The spasms continue as he's licked clean, and he can't bite back his moan fast enough before he scoots back once oversensitivity starts to set in, only for his eyes to blow open wide at the sight of Kaveh licking some clean. It should be repulsive, but he can feel his dick tingling at the sight and reawakening fast, which isn't helped by having his wings kissed once more. ]
Shouldn't I– shouldn't I do something for you first? If you keep doing that, I will just keep finishing instead, and I do not myself know much what a Halovian's limitations are in that area, if there are any.
[ He rubs the heel of his hand over Kaveh's bulge, following it higher before popping open to the button of his pants. ]
…in time. I’m not finished with you yet. [ he joins their lips together for a soft kiss, his hips jumping as his cloth laden dick is rubbed. ] I… I want to fuck you. Or… or is that too much?
[ He's not sure if he'll ever get the chance again, and after spending so many years denying himself from even his own touch, he wants to know and experience everything he's missed out on. Wants to feel normal and free with someone who is beautiful and sweet. ]
Let me make it easier for you first.
[ He suddenly moves off the bed so he can start undressing and folds his clothes into a neat pile before looking around his room. ]
I read that we would need some lubricating fluids to make it easier.
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And why did you try to kiss me? The last time someone tried, they were under the influence of something they drank. In the end, it turned out they were not even attracted, and everything they said at the time had been a lie.
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...It did feel good, and you are kind. Very kind. When I hear you speak, it is enthralling, even when you describe something mundane. I think the feeling could be mutual, but then I remember you only know part of me, and you may come to despise me if I told you everything.
I apologize for how I reacted. I did not wish to be another regret.
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Maybe I don’t know everything there is to know about you, but isn’t that the point of a relationship… to get to know each other better?
And we all think like that, you know, …that we’re not worth it, because of this or that. But that doesn’t always matter. I like you for you.
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I used a Stellaron, which is a cancerous fissure that destabilizes everything it touches, to attempt to force everyone under my sole control by making them dream eternally, and I would be reborn as a new Aeon that would keep watch over humanity. My delusions of grandeur led to my downfall and defeat, and I was a prisoner of the Family prior to coming here.
I lost everything. Only my sister still cares about my well-being, but I am forbidden from seeing her. Everyone else sees me as a criminal who yielded to his own mad ideals and abused his power of the Harmony to manipulate as many people as possible, and they are correct. I was naive and wanted to fix everything wrong with our world.
[ His wings droop. ]
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And what about now? Do you still intend to follow the Order's law under the guise of Harmony? Or have you finally accepted and adopted Harmony's teachings? Or... is it a bit of both?
...as nice as dreams are they're nothing compared to the real world. Sure, there's never any pain or sorrow, but part of being human, even being alive, is knowing that there's a balance between the good and the bad. Nobody can fix everything. There is no... perfect world, and there never will be. We endure the bad to thrive in the good.
I hope that you get to see your sister again, and that you find a new path to tread. If you've finally come to understand that nobody should hold that much power over anybody else, then maybe you'll earn yourself a second chance... [ it makes sense why sunday was saying he deserved all of this early on. that it was 'retribution'. ]
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I hope I see my sister again too, but I would have to be released to do so...[ and accept the deal Robin made with Bonajade. ]
The reason I am telling you this now is because I meant what I said before. I am fond of you but do not wish to pursue anything deeper under the guise of deception and unspoken truths, and you were honest about your financial situation in your world.
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It could happen. Who knows what will happen if and when we leave here. If we'll be returned in the exact same state as when we left... maybe we'll even get to keep all of these new abilities. [ he hopes that's a CHOICE. his will likely be no but HEY some people might want/need them. ]
[ kaveh groans, ] ...keep that to yourself. It's bad enough I have to hide it from everybody in Sumeru. My magnum opus put me in the poor house, but it's what I'm revered for. [ nobody knows the truth... but they'd all likely have a good old laugh if they ever found out. ] I'm lucky I have friends like Alhaitham. I wouldn't have a home if not for him.
...so now what, since we've finished our little circle of share?
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And I can finish what you began...if you are not opposed? Just a kiss before I excuse myself.
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[ He doesn't want to mention his inexperience in case that scares Kaveh away. Even he's not really sure how one usually progresses with intimacy. ]
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[ He tenses up a little at the hand on his thigh, too dangerously close to his groin, as his heart starts to pound in his chest, but he doesn't move away. Instead, he moves closer, head tilting to one side as he presses a chaste kiss to Kaveh's mouth, eyes closed, mouth not really moving at first until his lips part to slot tighter against Kaveh's. ]
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His other hand nervously pushes Kaveh's shirt open, rubbing over his chest, marveling at the lithe muscle underneath before murmuring– ]
Where do you like to be touched the most?
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Can you…can you touch my wings? I don’t usually permit anyone to do it, but I want to know how it feels.
[ For obvious reasons, but he figures it’s fair play for stimulating Kaveh’s second mouth. ]
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I would prefer not to put anything larger than a finger in there yet until you learn more control. If we can leave that idea for the future, I may oblige you assuming you wish to try this again with me.
[ He can survive losing a finger...not so much anything else, though he doesn't have much time to visualize the horror as his wings are caressed. His eyes shut, body tense, dick already leaking into his underwear, as pleasure shoots down his spine before his hips involuntary rock forwards, ass dragging across Kaveh's groin to stimulate him with friction. His hand cups the back of Kaveh's head to urge him forwards at the same time as two other pairs of small wings sprout to cover his own face and eyes. ]
More...you can do more. Just don't pull or tear them.
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He hunches over panting afterwards, looking flushed and embarrassed. ]
I...I'm sorry...tried to hold back, but you were so– [ hot. ]
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Shouldn't I– shouldn't I do something for you first? If you keep doing that, I will just keep finishing instead, and I do not myself know much what a Halovian's limitations are in that area, if there are any.
[ He rubs the heel of his hand over Kaveh's bulge, following it higher before popping open to the button of his pants. ]
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[ He's not sure if he'll ever get the chance again, and after spending so many years denying himself from even his own touch, he wants to know and experience everything he's missed out on. Wants to feel normal and free with someone who is beautiful and sweet. ]
Let me make it easier for you first.
[ He suddenly moves off the bed so he can start undressing and folds his clothes into a neat pile before looking around his room. ]
I read that we would need some lubricating fluids to make it easier.
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