Sorry, I'm a writer and screenwriter, I use this kinda terminology, especially because the Showmaster is so obsessed with stories. Basically it's nonsensical stuff that doesn't justify being on this boat to experience. Maybe they will all tie in together, but my experiences go to negative harmful potentials for otherwise innocent but apparently pointless interactions.

Not sure if what he learned made it worse. He's very avoidant of the situation and selling heh u distraction. That's what I've been doing for the past several hours for him. He finally fell asleep, so I put him to bed.

It's understandable, I don't blame him, it's just this whole ship is dangerously fucked up emotional powdered that no one knows how to deal with, apparently, except with sleeping around with each other. Normally, this type of behavior is not the healthiest but can work for many people trouble, but we're basically in a cage of our own making. The drama on this ship regarding everyone's relationships really short circuits me. I try to underhand , but the fact is I never will. Both me and my vision self are not able to understand human emotions enough to assist people like I want to.

[ sighs. Drinks some more. ]

Maybe I'm actually jealous of everyone's connections rather than really think they're playing with fire, but...