I don’t know. It… it wants to close around your hand, I think… so I need to keep it open. Make sure it doesn’t. Why… did that feel too weird, did you want to stop?
[ The problem is now he wants to touch it with his bare hand, and this is how he digs himself into deeper trouble. He peels one of his gloves off to experimentally run his thumb over the edge. ]
It did, but...not a bad weird, if that makes sense. Can you hold it for a few seconds?
Sunday. Sunday. What are you… doing… [ he knows what he’s doing. he can SEE what he’s doing. his muscles tense as he restrains himself, his mouth, but he can only do so much… leaving it to open itself invitingly to sunday. it uses its tongue to try to coax his fingers, his hand, into it… and kaveh is doing everything he can not to moan. it feels weird, but it’s a good weird, and he swears that if this keeps up he’s going to pop a boner. ] This is dangerous, Sunday.
[ His finger dips inside against his better judgment, stroking the secondary tongue and rubbing against the textured surface. The wetness of it is already misfiring all kinds of signals to his body as he feels his lower stomach and inner thighs tingle. ]
I apologize...I should stop.
[ He forces himself to withdraw, feeling a little bad for testing him, though he wants to dip the same wet finger into his own mouth now. ]
At least, we can say you passed your first test with flying colors.
[ kaveh grabs a hold of sunday's wrist, his own hand trembling as he tries to remove it, but there's a part of him that's enjoying the over-stimulation. it's him, but also it's not him, and that's mind-fucking him more than anything right now. ] You- You should. [ his face is flushed when sunday finally obliges, kaveh's hand falling back to the bed as he grips it tightly. ] You... you taste nice, Sunday. [ and he really wants to taste more of him... using both his mouths. ]
[ He's not sure how to interpret that, looking at Kaveh a little owlishly for once. ]
Taste nice in the sense that your second mouth finds me appetizing enough to eat? I am not sure if I should be flattered or not. However, I do not want you to feel self-conscious.
[ He removes his jacket and rolls up his sleeves, summoning eyes to his flesh and two more pairs of wings on his head while a few wings appear on his back. ]
You are not the only one with an unconventional physique.
[ His wings close over his own face as he places a hand on Kaveh's chest to stop him. These blonds really will be the end of him. ]
Are you under an enchantment? Will you regret this later when your mind returns to you and you remember you have a partner somewhere who is more important than whatever fleeting euphoria you would get from me?
...what, no, [ he huffs, looking a bit put off. ] How come that's the first thing that came to mind, ...and what partner? Alhaitham? Please, he'd be happy to be rid of me, tch.
...what spell. [ he bristles. ] Alhaitham is my roommate if you must know, because I don't have a place of my own, okay. I sold it. I sold everything and I have nothing. There! you've dragged it out of me. [ he grabs at his shirt, because he's feeling exposed and frustrated. ] ...that's not what I want. I can get off on my own if that was even what I wanted to do. Looking for gratification... [ he moves backward. ]
I do not have anything either anymore, but even if I did, I would not judge you for it.
And why did you try to kiss me? The last time someone tried, they were under the influence of something they drank. In the end, it turned out they were not even attracted, and everything they said at the time had been a lie.
And, what, now you assume everybody and everything is a lie. I tried to kiss you because I like you, and you started fingering my mouth hole. That was more than just testing the waters. [ he starts fumbling with his shirt, hurriedly trying to put it back on. ] … [ and his story? kaveh doesn’t even know if he can believe it. its origins might be rooted in truth, but, like this, it’s probably skewed. ] I think we’ve explored enough of each other today.
[ He stares in shock for a moment before murmuring– ]
...It did feel good, and you are kind. Very kind. When I hear you speak, it is enthralling, even when you describe something mundane. I think the feeling could be mutual, but then I remember you only know part of me, and you may come to despise me if I told you everything.
I apologize for how I reacted. I did not wish to be another regret.
...I do not fully worship the Harmony as I should, for as much as I espouse their teachings and virtues. It was a facade. I was brought up to worship the Order, and so I did, under my adopted father's command and tutelage. I believed that every living being could only be saved if they were under one who embodied the Order.
I used a Stellaron, which is a cancerous fissure that destabilizes everything it touches, to attempt to force everyone under my sole control by making them dream eternally, and I would be reborn as a new Aeon that would keep watch over humanity. My delusions of grandeur led to my downfall and defeat, and I was a prisoner of the Family prior to coming here.
I lost everything. Only my sister still cares about my well-being, but I am forbidden from seeing her. Everyone else sees me as a criminal who yielded to his own mad ideals and abused his power of the Harmony to manipulate as many people as possible, and they are correct. I was naive and wanted to fix everything wrong with our world.
[ if he could remember all the stuff that scaramouche ( now wanderer ) did... then this would sound a little too familiar. but nevertheless he listens intently to sunday's retelling of what happened in penacony and everything he did to inevitably seal his own fate and land himself in chains. ]
And what about now? Do you still intend to follow the Order's law under the guise of Harmony? Or have you finally accepted and adopted Harmony's teachings? Or... is it a bit of both?
...as nice as dreams are they're nothing compared to the real world. Sure, there's never any pain or sorrow, but part of being human, even being alive, is knowing that there's a balance between the good and the bad. Nobody can fix everything. There is no... perfect world, and there never will be. We endure the bad to thrive in the good.
I hope that you get to see your sister again, and that you find a new path to tread. If you've finally come to understand that nobody should hold that much power over anybody else, then maybe you'll earn yourself a second chance... [ it makes sense why sunday was saying he deserved all of this early on. that it was 'retribution'. ]
I...do not know. I do not disagree nor loathe the Harmony. It is their very powers I still use and their path I still follow...I would like to find another way to bring paradise to the masses and keep them safe, but one without compromising their free will.
I hope I see my sister again too, but I would have to be released to do so...[ and accept the deal Robin made with Bonajade. ]
The reason I am telling you this now is because I meant what I said before. I am fond of you but do not wish to pursue anything deeper under the guise of deception and unspoken truths, and you were honest about your financial situation in your world.
...that sounds like an impossible dream. [ keyword: dream. ]
It could happen. Who knows what will happen if and when we leave here. If we'll be returned in the exact same state as when we left... maybe we'll even get to keep all of these new abilities. [ he hopes that's a CHOICE. his will likely be no but HEY some people might want/need them. ]
[ kaveh groans, ] ...keep that to yourself. It's bad enough I have to hide it from everybody in Sumeru. My magnum opus put me in the poor house, but it's what I'm revered for. [ nobody knows the truth... but they'd all likely have a good old laugh if they ever found out. ] I'm lucky I have friends like Alhaitham. I wouldn't have a home if not for him.
...so now what, since we've finished our little circle of share?
I will not repeat it to anyone. You have my word, and I would have liked to have seen your magnum opus in Sumeru...There may still be a chance one day. As you said, none of us know what will happen next and where the path we are on now leads.
And I can finish what you began...if you are not opposed? Just a kiss before I excuse myself.
How about we... see where things take us? We don't have to force it. I don't want you to be uncomfortable... [ he reaches across and sets a hand on sunday's thigh, rubbing it reassuringly. ]
[ He tenses up a little at the hand on his thigh, too dangerously close to his groin, as his heart starts to pound in his chest, but he doesn't move away. Instead, he moves closer, head tilting to one side as he presses a chaste kiss to Kaveh's mouth, eyes closed, mouth not really moving at first until his lips part to slot tighter against Kaveh's. ]
[ kaveh squeezes his thigh as he scoots closer, his hand forced up to the junction between sunday's hips and leg. he carefully brushes his fingers over his crotch as their lips come together for a kiss. ] Mm. [ he purrs into his mouth, swiping his tongue over his partner's lips in an attempt to garner entry. ]
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It did, but...not a bad weird, if that makes sense. Can you hold it for a few seconds?
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I apologize...I should stop.
[ He forces himself to withdraw, feeling a little bad for testing him, though he wants to dip the same wet finger into his own mouth now. ]
At least, we can say you passed your first test with flying colors.
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Taste nice in the sense that your second mouth finds me appetizing enough to eat? I am not sure if I should be flattered or not. However, I do not want you to feel self-conscious.
[ He removes his jacket and rolls up his sleeves, summoning eyes to his flesh and two more pairs of wings on his head while a few wings appear on his back. ]
You are not the only one with an unconventional physique.
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[ you’re only making yourself more appetizing. ] …looks like we’re both a little different. [ he’s going to lean in to kiss him. ]
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Are you under an enchantment? Will you regret this later when your mind returns to you and you remember you have a partner somewhere who is more important than whatever fleeting euphoria you would get from me?
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I apologize. I simply wasn't sure of your intentions and was worried once the spell was broken, you would feel disgust.
[ He doesn't want to set himself up for rejection a second time. ]
But if your intentions are sincere and you are simply looking for gratification, I can accommodate you.
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And why did you try to kiss me? The last time someone tried, they were under the influence of something they drank. In the end, it turned out they were not even attracted, and everything they said at the time had been a lie.
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...It did feel good, and you are kind. Very kind. When I hear you speak, it is enthralling, even when you describe something mundane. I think the feeling could be mutual, but then I remember you only know part of me, and you may come to despise me if I told you everything.
I apologize for how I reacted. I did not wish to be another regret.
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Maybe I don’t know everything there is to know about you, but isn’t that the point of a relationship… to get to know each other better?
And we all think like that, you know, …that we’re not worth it, because of this or that. But that doesn’t always matter. I like you for you.
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I used a Stellaron, which is a cancerous fissure that destabilizes everything it touches, to attempt to force everyone under my sole control by making them dream eternally, and I would be reborn as a new Aeon that would keep watch over humanity. My delusions of grandeur led to my downfall and defeat, and I was a prisoner of the Family prior to coming here.
I lost everything. Only my sister still cares about my well-being, but I am forbidden from seeing her. Everyone else sees me as a criminal who yielded to his own mad ideals and abused his power of the Harmony to manipulate as many people as possible, and they are correct. I was naive and wanted to fix everything wrong with our world.
[ His wings droop. ]
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And what about now? Do you still intend to follow the Order's law under the guise of Harmony? Or have you finally accepted and adopted Harmony's teachings? Or... is it a bit of both?
...as nice as dreams are they're nothing compared to the real world. Sure, there's never any pain or sorrow, but part of being human, even being alive, is knowing that there's a balance between the good and the bad. Nobody can fix everything. There is no... perfect world, and there never will be. We endure the bad to thrive in the good.
I hope that you get to see your sister again, and that you find a new path to tread. If you've finally come to understand that nobody should hold that much power over anybody else, then maybe you'll earn yourself a second chance... [ it makes sense why sunday was saying he deserved all of this early on. that it was 'retribution'. ]
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I hope I see my sister again too, but I would have to be released to do so...[ and accept the deal Robin made with Bonajade. ]
The reason I am telling you this now is because I meant what I said before. I am fond of you but do not wish to pursue anything deeper under the guise of deception and unspoken truths, and you were honest about your financial situation in your world.
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It could happen. Who knows what will happen if and when we leave here. If we'll be returned in the exact same state as when we left... maybe we'll even get to keep all of these new abilities. [ he hopes that's a CHOICE. his will likely be no but HEY some people might want/need them. ]
[ kaveh groans, ] ...keep that to yourself. It's bad enough I have to hide it from everybody in Sumeru. My magnum opus put me in the poor house, but it's what I'm revered for. [ nobody knows the truth... but they'd all likely have a good old laugh if they ever found out. ] I'm lucky I have friends like Alhaitham. I wouldn't have a home if not for him.
...so now what, since we've finished our little circle of share?
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And I can finish what you began...if you are not opposed? Just a kiss before I excuse myself.
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[ He doesn't want to mention his inexperience in case that scares Kaveh away. Even he's not really sure how one usually progresses with intimacy. ]
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[ He tenses up a little at the hand on his thigh, too dangerously close to his groin, as his heart starts to pound in his chest, but he doesn't move away. Instead, he moves closer, head tilting to one side as he presses a chaste kiss to Kaveh's mouth, eyes closed, mouth not really moving at first until his lips part to slot tighter against Kaveh's. ]
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